Saturday, March 19, 2011

And the hits just keep on comin'...

So its been a ridiculous amount of time since my last post. And as I tweeted yesterday, every time I think about sitting myself down to catch up, my motivation flies out the window. Theres just something about being so very far behind that you just want to forget about it and leave it alone. But I will try to be better and catch you all up on whats been going on with me lately.

As you could probably tell from my tweet updates, the last couple months have been pretty crappy. I have never felt more tired and rundown than I have for the last couple months. Its crazy. I have more time to relax and sit around doing nothing and yet I feel like I've been overdoing it and running myself ragged. I hate not feeling like I have something that needs doing! I feel like if I had a reason to get up in the morning and get going, then life would somehow get back on track and all may be well again. Well, one could hope anyway....besides, I REALLY need the health insurance!

You know the little warning feeling you get right before a nice doozy of a flareup comes to visit? yeah, I've been fighting that off for...well, the last month and a half I guess. I've been sleeping as long as I feel I need to, which, I'm not proud to say, has been a majority of my time....Which really tells me how bad it really is. I only go 12-16 hours of dead to this world sleep when somethings really wrong, and boy have I been sleeping lately. And there hasn't been a day that's gone by in that time that something hasn't hurt like crazy. I'm getting so used to the pain, that something new hurting isn't a surprise, or even unexpected. Actually, the only reason I really notice is if it gets worse when I try to do something or it keeps me from doing something. lately, the time when I notice a new ache or pain is when I'm icing something know the drill, quiet the pain in one place and it gets louder somewhere else...nice right?

And you want to know something really sad? I actually got excited when I found my other icepack today. Ran...well, limped...right up the stairs and put it in the freezer so I'd have it later. Yes, that's right folks. The excitement of my day was to find another icepack so that one could freeze while I used the other, etc...that's how bad things have been. No matter how I sit, sleep or walk, my right knee seems to always be killing me. And if I try to compensate, then my left one acts up too...its a no win situation... So, I've been doing the sleeping thing, and totally dosing up on the Omega-3s and just trying not to over do it...which I can say has been easy, considering that's pretty much my typical day while on unemployment... My only "injury" has been sustained while searching the internet for new job possibilities...stinking carpel tunnel.... And I've been hoping to hold off the flareup to not actually happen. When last night, while waiting for exhaustion to override the pain so I could actually sleep, I noticed that telltale rash starting to pop up along my left wrist. Yeah...fantastic! right? So I turned off the alarm, and went to bed, and slept for another 12 hours. When I woke up the rash had faded, I could still tell where it was, but it at least didn't itch anymore.

Which is more than I can say for right now...I'm off to lotion up and off to bed. Hoping it will be gone in the morning and I can just attribute it to dry skin... Wouldn't that be wonderful? Here's hoping... Have a great day all!

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